I have been living on the surface
of an ocean of sadness
Recently, I grew tired of swimming
Tired of thrashing around
Tired of grasping
for something to hold on to
Tired of searching for solid ground
Even floating
had become exhausting
So I decided
at last
to sink instead
I let grief swallow me whole
I willingly drowned
I let sadness fill my every cell
I sank
all the way
to the ocean floor
At the bottom
of all that pain
was a place
where the whole world made sense
I understood easily
it is not possible to lose
anything at all
I saw clearly
the pain of feeling excruciatingly separate
is the very thing that connects me
deeply and intimately
to every single person here
I laid down there
breathing water
addicted
to the overwhelming peace
I climbed out the other side
Covered in salt
and full of power
.
.
.
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Photo magic by Hannah Marie