This is the third year in a row I have reflected back on a rough year. The cancer diagnoses and heartbreaking losses really knocked me down in 2015.
Annnnnd 2016.
Annnnnnnnnnd 2017.
Grief is not for sissies, that’s for sure. For the last two years on NYE I have had a “good riddance” attitude toward the previous year and a this-next-year-is going-to-be-better-for-sur
This year I feel different.
2017 contained some of the most painful moments of my life, but I am not keen to cast it, and the tremendous lessons it brought, aside. I recognize I will look back on 2017 as one of the most transformative and spiritually enlightening years of my life.
I have an enormous amount of hope for 2018 — SO MUCH HOPE — but I also expect it will be challenging. I expect there will be change I won’t like. I expect I will be uncomfortable often. I expect I will be tested and stretched in ways I can’t even imagine.
And — I’M READY.
I have been *training*.
If the last few years of my life haven’t been Healing Warrior Bootcamp, then I don’t want to know what is.
I’ve learned that even when things are hard — like messy, heart-wrenching, soul-shaking, sky-breaking hard — there is always Grace. There is always something to be grateful for. The most heartbreaking experiences of my life have left me with the belief that deep suffering provides us with the greatest opportunities to love and be loved. And the real secret is — it’s all love. ALL OF IT.
At least that’s what I learned in Healing Warrior Bootcamp 😉
Believe what you’d like, but I choose to believe that everything in my life is loving me more deeply than I could ever possibly comprehend.
Instead of wishing for things to be different than they are this year, my wish is that I will be able to experience things differently.
So, 2018, I got your number. I’m going to see the love in everything you do. 